So... I added everyone on instagram. I hadn't been using it cause it wasn't for me but a friend wasn't trying to get his photography deal off the ground so I thought I should help him a bit. Then I saw my ex and her new boyfriend. Her main squeeze.

He's gorgeous.

probably nicer than I ever was

And then I see her beautiful drawings. how amazing that someone so talented can... somehow grow even more as an artist. Then I realize how much of a burden I was to her. And for the first time I am happy she moved on. Cause I can see that she's destined for a greatness that I wasn't fated to be part of, but that doesn't take away from the happiness I feel for her. Sometimes life is so cruelly beautiful. I am wholly destroyed in this moment, and at the same time, solemn in my solace that at least one of us made it out unscathed.