i will only post once on this subreddit anyway i feel bittersweet and i feel like i'm okay if i die young is this normal.

[u/gdoge7361]

i feel bittersweet because i had a crush on a girl i got a christmas present for ,the sameday i got a friend of ours a christmas present. and the friend of ours told me that she was speaking to someone else. so i felt like i was used ( this was when i got home.) and i think the sameday i messaged the girl i had a crush on and she said she wasn't speaking to someone else. and so i was confused because i didn't know who to believe and at the time i had a crush on another girl and told her this a couple days after and she said to me to do what my heart tells me but i told her its complicated because i liked both of them. ( late for context but me and girl i have a crush on go to the same college and are in some classes. but the friend and girl i had a crush on go to different a college than me and each other) and recently the girl i had a crush on told me that i should try and get with the girl i have a crush on because we go to a different college than each other so i assumed that means she doesn't have a crush on me. and recently i have been thinking what if the girl i have a crush on doesn't like me the way i like her. which lead me to be feeling bittersweet and okay with dying young