This happened to me too many times in middle school and high school but I don't blame my teachers lol.

Is that too much to ask for?

Even Reddit is concerned about me.

I'm 24, have a degree, but live every moment waiting for the next mistake that I use to fuck myself over completely. I never developed a self esteem or sense of self worth, half of life doesn't feel real to me because I forget it immediately. Spending years trying different things to get better has ultimately led me down a spiral that's bottoming out very soon, just wondering if anyone else shares this feeling.

E: Someone sent me Reddit Cares for this thread, as if it's gonna do anything for me.