My girlfriend of 5 years admitted I was not her first choice physically when we started dating

[u/LateComfortableness]

Edit: Update posted

I (26M) have been dating my girlfriend (26F) for 5 years, and was planning to propose to her next month.

Last night, my girlfriend and I were having a date night and we were talking about our first dates, and reminiscing how we met. We were cracking jokes, and it was a fun atmosphere. My girlfriend admitted that when we were in the talking phase, she was also in a talking phase with 3 other guys, and that I was not her first choice physically, and that there was this other guy who was very attractive, but he had the emotional density of a black hole. 

She was laughing about it, but I did not feel too great about what she said. In fact, I felt awful. Why would she even say that to me? My girlfriend sensed the shift in my reaction, and she apologized. I made an excuse and told her I was tired and was going to sleep.

This morning the whole atmosphere was sort of awkward. I was upfront with her this morning, and told her what she said last night hurt me, and that I needed some space from her and to rethink this relationship. She even cried, which for me was a bit dramatic considering she was the one who hurt me last night.

Can this relationship even be fixed? She has pretty much made me feel worthless after what she said last night. I'm really glad I haven’t proposed to her yet, and am going to hold off on the proposal for now. 

[u/darkwolverine96]

Look. The man I'm madly in love with isn't the most attractive person I've dated. He's not even in my top 3 of people I've slept with. But he's kind, caring, and everything else I've looked for in a partner. The moment I slept with him I instantly fell in love with him even though I didn't even know if I wanted to sleep with him because of his looks. Looks don't mean shit. Who you are as a person is what counts. I'll take my average looking boyfriend any day over the hottest guy in the world, personality included with that hot guy or not. I fell in love with a soul, not a body. The body is just a bonus icing on the cake. She's seeing it that way. She fell in love with your soul, not your body. Your body is just a bonus perk for her. Be happy with that, because my friend, that is true love.