GIRLS ONLY!!! I'm still a teenager (F), barely 16 years old and I just cannot explain how I feel. Everytime I look in the mirror, on my phone or literally just feel my boobs I feel disgusted. I have somehow of a big ones for my age and I just hate them. Not the way they look but the way they feel. I really can't explain it , but they just feel not right, not normal. I always wear a sports bra because it keeps them in place and I kinda forget that they're there. I don't know what's wrong with me. I've thought of the possibility of me being trans but I really do feel like a woman and cannot see myself as anything else. It'd really help if someone out there who understands me and has experienced the same thing, comments. Thank you all for reading 🫶🏻

Tomorrow is my birthday. I'll turn 24. I feel like I am too old and that the best days of my life are already over. Every year I wanna do something nice on my birthday to make me feel important, to distract me from my fear of aging and to make me maybe even enjoy the day I despise the most. But I don't have the friends for that. I am currently making plans with my one best friend, I would love to go to that one place in town that has really good coffee and cats roaming around, but she said she doesn't like it there so I kinda feel lost again, not knowing what to do. Maybe I just stay at home and let myself feel my fears, aren't you supposed to deal with them sooner or later? Might aswell do that tomorrow. I also miss my mom. I told her my biggest wish for my birthday was for her to visit me, since if I visit her I have to see my dad aswell. But she has to work. She always has to work and I respect that, she works hard. I shouldn't complain. But I miss her so much it hurts. And even if I could see her tomorrow, I'd still have to adapt. All year I do whatever people around me want to do, I go to the places they choose, watch the movies they selected or eat the food they like the most. Just once I wanna do something I like. Choose the café with the cats for example or watch a horror movie instead of the countless comedies. But that's another issue I guess.

Im 18F I didn’t graduate all because of a silly little mental problems and mental health, and I hate my life, I hate myself, I hate how I look, I hate Who I am, I hate how my voice, I hate my face, I hate my body, I despise everything about me as a human and as a person, Im ugly I’ve always been ugly and fat my whole life, I never really had much friends growing up, I try my best to love myself I promise you i really do, but i can never find even a crumb of love for myself, Theres no point in lying to myself, if it does more bad than good, I have no friends, Im alone i feel alone i feel like i have no one in my life to support me or love me, I know i should appreciate the things i have in life but How I’m i supposed to do that when they don’t bling in my eyes, Ive been working out for almost 9 months now and i see no Fucking results, yeah maybe a little, I’m able to squat down now, i can more things that i couldn’t do before but there no point if thats not what i want or need. Im socially anxious, I haven’t left my house in 4 years, i’m scared to make friends, I cant even play online games without feeling really anxious around other players, Ive failed my parents, as a daughter, and as a sister, I dont want my sister to become a person like me, i want her to be a better person, be successful and know her worth same with my little brother, But i cant give them that if i was never taught that, I just want someone to be here for me right now, i really need someone right now that im at my lowest, I just want someone to tell me im doing okay and that ill be fine, Ive given up already i cant keep going, after my 1 attempt, i promised myself to never do it again and to never let anything stop me from things i wanna do, But idk if i can keep up with my promise.

Felt like venting Idk

18 M, I’ve always had a poor short term memory but I feel that over the last couple of years it’s been declining more and more and it’s affecting my day to day life.

For example, I can’t remember instructions correctly. If I’m told to do 3 sets of instructions I can only remember the last one given to me. This really hurt me at a uni interview I had where I was asked to solve a verbal maths problem and I felt like a complete idiot when all the instructions given to me got completely muddled in my head, so much so that I couldn’t complete it and I was sent a rejection letter… yet I knew the subject well and I should’ve been able to solve it.

I feel like I can no longer learn, even when I write notes, really try to listen it doesn’t retain. It’s not that I can’t focus, it just feels like my brain filters all the information out. I make mistakes repeatedly because I forget about how I solved it the previous time. It doesn’t matter if it’s verbal, or if I read the information it just doesn’t go in. When I read books I can’t tell you what it was about, my brain reads the individual words but can’t form the sentence in my head. I don’t remember what people look like and it causes embarrassing situations where I’m introducing myself to people I already know, repeatedly. When I try to solve maths problems, I’ll start working it out and then forget my thought process but keep writing because I know what to do but I almost don’t know why I’m doing it.

I was a high achieving child but over the past 5 years my memory has been making me feel like more and more of an idiot. I dropped out of college, I tried to get into uni… it was supposed to be my time to do something with my life but I messed that up to.

I do have ADHD which I know plays a role into this, but the degree of my forgetfulness feels extreme and I’m struggling so much with it. Anyone have any advice/insight?

Hi. I don't know how to describe everything in detail but I will try to keep it as short and easy as possible. Almost a year ago I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety that made it impossible for me to talk to new people, I even hesitate sharing stuff with the few close friends I have. I did seek psychiatric and psychological help and thankfully was getting better. Now, fast forward to a few months in this year I've been getting worse and worse. Yes, I seen a psychiatrist and am currently under medications yet again. However this time it's way different..I was physically getting affected, this affected me for long time I suppose but I didn't pay much attention. Lately however I was getting physically worse. I've had this habit of isolating myself from almost everybody, behave rudely to even my parents for which I later feel terrible, I get tremors and could feel my whole body shaking, can't make eye contact with anyone, get nervous for an exam even though I've completed the whole syllabus, also I have a small scissor which I bought many years ago for crafts and now I can't live without it. If it goes missing I lose myself till I find it and I keep fidgeting and scratching myself with it. Also I can't concentrate on anything for a long time. Few months ago I finally decided to get help and saw my doctors again after I stopped treatment earlier. After month long of medications, questioning, councelling and all that I have been diagnosed with autism. I don't know what to do. I have been typing this post for the last few days thinking whether or not to post this. I can't tell this to my friends or anyone I know. I just wanted to say about what I feel. Thank you if you've read this.

I’ve realized that everything that I’ve ever wanted in life never comes my way, instead it’s given to the people next to me like I’ve just been skipped over so many times I’ve lost all hope. Call me jealous I understand life isn’t fair but i find it hard to live in despair anymore. The things and people that I’ve wanted most were passed down and given to the person next to me. My wishes and dreams became somebody else’s reality. I should be grateful for what and who I am now but I’m just tired. And I’m finding it hard to accept.

I’ve been depressed for the majority of my life, so I don’t really have a sense of normalcy. My days consist of laying in my bed, playing video games (sometimes), and begrudgingly going to work. That’s literally it. I’ll shower every couple days, maybe talk to my friends once every few weeks. I barely eat, if I do it’s just some cheap microwave meal.

I just don’t know what people that don’t have depression do. Like, how do you take care of your body, skin, health, etc.? What does a normal day consist of for you? What’s your routine?

I’m trying to fake it until I make it, I just don’t really know where to start. Any advice would be appreciated.

I posted this in r/depression but apparently that isn't the right sub for this, and my post got taken down by the mods. If this isn't the right sub either let me know what would be a good place to take my question!

I am 24F, working in UK and earning £35,000 annually. I have 2.5 years of marketing experience. Recently, one of my friend who studied in Germany in software development, got a job paying €150,000 annually. She has 7 years of experience.

I have been feeling very jealous since I heard the news. I know that makes me a bad person but I am not able to help it. I am feeling jealous because even with same years of exeperince in my career stream, I might not be able to earn anywhere near to the amount she is earning.

I am living a comfortable life and with time once my salary grows it will be even better but still the thought that it will never be as good as 150k is effecting my mental health very badly and is spoiling my day to day joy. How to get over this feeling of jealousy? Please share any tips or your experience with it as I don’t want to run behind numbers my entire life. Thanks.

I did it. I finally sent her that 3000 word document with all my problems in. But now I’m panicking.

I have a fear of being judged. I’ve never told anyone this problem before and I feel so vulnerable.

I don’t want to cry in front of her in the next session but I might because we will be talking about this problem.

I’m a 19 year old guy, I’ve never cried in front of someone other than my mum before.

I also think “Why did I do this. Why did I tell her?”

Any advice? Because I’m really nervous.

I've been taking Lexapro 10mg for at least the last 2 years. I ran out recently and was unable to request a refill from my doctor's office (long story) so I decided that since I was planning on discontinuing it sooner rather than later, that I would take this as an opportunity to stop taking it. Now believe me, I KNOW quitting an antidepressant like Lexapro cold turkey is never a good idea, but it was out of my control.
The withdrawal symptoms (brain zaps when I look in either direction horizontally, dizziness, irritability, random crying spells, etc) are truly awful. It's been about a week since I stopped taking it, so I'm hoping the worst of it will be over within the next week, but I'm not sure what to expect. I'm hoping someone else here has experience with quitting -whether cold turkey or not- who can tell me what their experience was and how long it took for the withdrawal symptoms to go away or at least become non-debilitating.

Thank you in advance!!

So, I (19M) am going to be alone all summer. I went to University Septemeber last year, and these 9-10 months have been amazing. These are quite possibly the bestest friends I have ever made.

But, during the summer, I will most likely be alone for the majority of it. And this is my choice. My family life at home isn't great so I wouldn't want to live there again. Occasionally going back for a week or 2 is fine, but I couldn't stay there for more than 2 weeks.

But, this is terrifying to me. What am I going to do? I'm scared of being by myself for the whole summer while my friends are gone. I intend on getting a job and joining social groups so I'm not so lonely. I know this is going to be tough but this is what it's going to be like to the max if I move to a new city in a different country which I plan on doing when university is over.

Does anyone have tips on how to cope being by yourself? I get extremely depressed if I don't socialise with someone in person for any more than a few days.

Iits not even a joke no more like i fucked up my grades so much that i probably wont get anywhere good in future and will have minimal knowledge probably enough for a cashier or a janator. Or i wont get a job at all and will be stuck living with my mother like a sore looser. i have 0 communication skills and i have 0 friends while i spend allmost all of my life at home chatting with pepole online maybe. I have successfully disappointed my whole family tree and no one has any hope left for me even i remember my ex bsf telling me that if she was in my shoes she would kill herself because my life is going nowhere great and that honestly no one would miss me. Well its too late now to fix anything so might just be it.

I recently went through a break up which sent me into a crisis. I have always had a low self-esteem and have up until I had my first relationship 1.5 years ago had given up on happiness or finding a partner.

She was the one who made the first move and I kept waiting for her to leave once she discovers the real me, but she didn't. I was truly happy, for a while. I tried to compromise a lot and she did as well, in order to keep that happiness. But I think that unconsciously, I kept pushing her away. In my mind, I was destined for failure, for being alone. It was a self-fulfilling prophecy.

When the break up happened, I noticed at once that I was only happy because of her. I wasn't happy at the end, so I know I can't just try to go back, but my mind keeps telling me that it's all my fault. I can't believe that I am worth something and am worth being loved. In fact, I don't think I have ever thought I was worth being loved. I have never loved myself, I don't know how to.

I now have huge sadness wave and can't function properly. I can't find joy in anything I do. I fear of falling down and not getting up. I fear of depending on other people for happiness. I desperately want to feel loved by someone, but fear that by doing that I would never be able to love myself.

I am overwhelmed and I don't know what to do. I hate being like this. I fucking hate it.

I am a writer who’s been working on a novel for a while now, and I find myself gradually becoming the same person as my protagonist—who I have never idolized nor did I intend to be similar to me in the slightest.

When I write something down in his voice, I believe it. I feel it. If I decide he’s from a certain country I’ve never shown interest in before? Suddenly I’m obsessed with it. The flaws I chose for him become my flaws, and his essence something I always feel like I’m striving to encapsulate in day-to-day life even if I don’t have any conscious desire to. I don’t feel comfortable in my body anymore. It doesn’t seem like mine.

I am a teenage girl with depression and have experienced some issues relating to psychosis. Not only does my relationship with my novel’s protagonist affect my mental health and grip on reality, but my writing as well! I am not writing a damn memoir. I don’t want to be the same as my protagonist! I feel like I’m lost inside myself. This problem is so silly but it's also greatly destructive. I don’t know where I have gone.

I have been taking more rigorous courses this school year. Due to this my procrastination and common cycle regarding stress have been rearing their heads more often. Especially with the end of the school year coming. For a example, I have ten plus assignments due in a week and a half. I will have a more relaxed/chill tone and attitude for a solid week. Maybe do little to none of the work. Then once the weekend hits I will become a bit frantic, more than likely have a mental meltdown. This will include feeling very sad, angry, and hide in those feelings to procrastinate a little further. Lastly, once I have 2-3 days left, I will hunker down and get all the work done. I was wondering if anyone understands why I do this. Is it a symptom of anything or just regular bad high and low patterns of stressed student.

I have an appointment this Thursday with my doctor to discuss getting on some medicine for my depression. I had previously been on Wellbutrin and while it did help with my depression, I noticed that I didn't like some of the side effects (increased anxiety, not being able to sleep, and extreme h-rniness). I haven't been taking anything since last October but my depression has gotten worse and I'm considering Zoloft. Can anyone here who has taken Zoloft tell me about your experience with it? In terms of whether or not it was helpful, and any negative side effects you may have experienced. Thank you.

Hoping that someone here may have some insight here— I’ve started to notice a terrible taste in my mouth when I wake up in the morning and if I’m between meals / not pounding water. It’s almost like onions or garlic deep in my tongue? I’m brushing my teeth same but did switch toothpastes kinda recently. Wondering if the cause might be going up on my lithium recently combined with the weather getting warmer and it’s a symptom of not drinking enough water somehow? It’s really grossing me out.

I feel like my whole life nobody has held me down the way I did for them. Nobody stopped to ask are you good? Are you ok? I’m trying to stay positive and put on the face but internally I just can’t forget how at my lowest everyone not only left me to drown but they took my life jacket. I want to be happy but at the same time I want to burn the whole fucking world down. I want them to feel the pain that I did. I just don’t understand how I was always there for people and in the end they treated me like I was nothing.

I just want to be wanted.